Hey everybody. As you can tell, I'm using that glum tone. I don't feel loved right now. I know Jesus loves me. But some of my friends don't. When Marron turned 11 everyone posted about her and had a party and stuff like that. When Rosey turned 13 (which i wasn't her for) they posted and said Oh! Ro! Ur so old! and I cant believe you already a teen! and stuff like that. But you know what I got when I turned 11? A scrappy sentence saying "Happy Birthday Kat!'' Why not me? Why am so much different than the others? Are they smarter? Are they prettier? Are they nicer? To me, no. To others, probably. Why am I not loved? Why am so much less important? Hope you feel good out there. I may laugh, I may smile, and I may pretend everything is okay. But inside, I'm burning with despair and anger. So I may never be the same. Thanks, and hope you have a WONDERFUL life, knowing you hurt someone. One that is beyond repair. Some people will say 'Oh Kat, Ur overreacting!' Maybe I am. Maybe writing this post wasn't such a good idea. Maybe I hate everyone right now. But I'm hurt. Bad. Here's the stupid random smileys. Goodbye. I can get new friends. :'( >:(
Sunday, November 18, 2012
Angry, sad, Im terrible
Hey everybody. As you can tell, I'm using that glum tone. I don't feel loved right now. I know Jesus loves me. But some of my friends don't. When Marron turned 11 everyone posted about her and had a party and stuff like that. When Rosey turned 13 (which i wasn't her for) they posted and said Oh! Ro! Ur so old! and I cant believe you already a teen! and stuff like that. But you know what I got when I turned 11? A scrappy sentence saying "Happy Birthday Kat!'' Why not me? Why am so much different than the others? Are they smarter? Are they prettier? Are they nicer? To me, no. To others, probably. Why am I not loved? Why am so much less important? Hope you feel good out there. I may laugh, I may smile, and I may pretend everything is okay. But inside, I'm burning with despair and anger. So I may never be the same. Thanks, and hope you have a WONDERFUL life, knowing you hurt someone. One that is beyond repair. Some people will say 'Oh Kat, Ur overreacting!' Maybe I am. Maybe writing this post wasn't such a good idea. Maybe I hate everyone right now. But I'm hurt. Bad. Here's the stupid random smileys. Goodbye. I can get new friends. :'( >:(
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sorry kat! hang on was i there at your birthday?
ReplyDeleteLook Kat. I'm sorry that I didn't do a post about your birthday. First of all you didn't really tell anyone it was your birthday and second you know that if I knew it was your birthday I would have made a blog post. And I don't know why you are wanting new friends. That makes me feel like I can't do enough for you and I'm sorry for that. But Kat, if you want recognition you have to tel people. I'm sorry your hurt but if you fell like you need new friends, I'm fine with that.
ReplyDeleteI made a post on my b-day!!! I said YAAAAAY IM FINNALLY 11 the post was called 'IM 11 AND SPIDE POISON! how could you not c that? Rosey did.
ReplyDeleteKat I didnt see your bday post until two days after and i was busy! U didnt even tell anyone. And the problem also is that we barley ever see each other anymore. Kat i DO think ur overreacting. As Grey said, if u need new friends im fine with that. Its not that i dont like u kat im sorry u feel that way...
Deletefine here my answer. i'm the terrible most worst friend okay? at least u managed to get a happy birthday talk from us! that's what mattters. And if u want new friends then fine Shoo off if u want i'm not being rude but dont be like that
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